Random Thoughts

This pretty random (time of year maybe?) but I've been having all sorts of conflicting feelings about having another baby. I have this inner dialogue between the pros and cons running through my head a lot of the time. I miss being pregnant sometimes. Then again, the idea of putting my body through all those changes again makes me nervous. But I did have such a healthy, easy pregnancy. But I was so anxious about chemical exposure, and it wasn't easy working while pregnant. I would love for Miles to have a sibling. But I can also kind of see him as an only child. I would enjoy having a couple of kiddos. But also the idea of displacing Miles as the apple of my eye makes me a little sad. We're doing a pretty good job getting our financial situation straightened out. But adding another pregnancy and baby would put a strain on it again.

And so on.

Chances are we will. We're talking about trying again next summer. But that seems so soon! Yikes.

Maybe I should at least get Miles sleeping through the night before we make any more babies. Heh. Speaking of which, is there a way to get a crazy almost-toddler-aged baby to sleep under a blanket??? It is getting cold here at night and though he has fleecy pajamas, I think he's going to need a blanket too. But he wants to be able to FLAIL about like a loon.

Last night, unbeknownst to me, we must have briefly lost power, which caused the programmed thermostat to default and hold at 62 all night. It was effing FREEZING and I didn't know why. So Miles kept waking up and crawling all over the bed whining, climbing on my head, etc., not to be persuaded to just snuggle up and get warm in a nice, quiet manner rather than by working up a sweat doing baby karate.

This morning has also been swell as it took me roughly an hour and a half to get him down for a nap in the pack & play. That is my job this week: naps in the pack & play. He did great for the past two days but not so much today. Sigh.